Oh to be young and free again.

So much happening lately.

I'm sort of starting to love how my life is unfolding.  It's amazing what experience can do for you... over time.  I love seeing my relationships change and grow into something so wonderful and unexpected.  I have certain relationships that are being refined like a fine wine, while others are still so fresh and new.  It's experience that has taught me to be careful with the new relationships.  Don't give so much of yourself away so quickly.  Part of the fun is the journey to the destination.

Patience.  Always learning patience.

I have achieved sort of an inner peace lately.  I just know that everything is going to be okay.  Somehow.  Somehow, it will all work out.  "It all comes out in the wash", right?  I'm learning to trust in a whole new way.  I used to be filled with such anger and hate... but now I know that everyone is just trying.  We're all just trying to make it through.  There is no room for judgment or assumptions.  Finding the inner peace has not been a great experience.  Oh turmoil.  It has its place in life, doesn't it?  

I recently had a chance to be a part of something pretty wonderful.  It was amazing.  The people, the atmosphere, the worship.  I was so proud.  So proud that I cried.  You guys deserve it, I hope you know that.  I'm not some superfan.  I'm just a friend who is downright joyous to see her friends that have changed her life change so many others through such an amazing gift.  Words cannot express :)

I'm trying to relish this moment.  This moment of calm.  Life is never calm for long.  I've learned to savor peace.  Savor the moments that are just commonplace.  This is life at its best.  

Am I stressed?  You betcha.  But am I letting it control me?  Hell no.

Tonight I relived a lot of my past through phone conversations, facebook, and old blogs.  I was just about to start in with the "have the best moments of my life already passed?" thoughts when I realized that could not be true.  The best is yet to come and babe won't it be fine.  I think that is the best attitude for all times and all situations.

2 years and counting.